Happy New year

As we close out on 2011 it has been a great year! We believe in our hearts that 2012 can be an even better year for. There were many great things that happened in 2012 that we feel very blessed about. I graduated from university of Phoenix with my Bachelor of science in psychology in June. This was just one of the many accomplishments of this year for us. Patrick left University of Phoenix and started going to Rasmussen College to obtain Bachelors degree Computer and gaming simulation. In September after a 2 1/2 month break from college I started my masters degree in Mental Health counseling at Walden University. Are education is very important to us and we are blessed to be able to get the educations that we are getting.

There is a saying to leave the best for last and there are two events in this past year that we have been blessed beyond anything. On September 17th Patrick and I got married at Grace Lutheran Church. We could not have asked for a more wonderful day for our wedding, and we thank everyone that was able to be there for us. We are thankful to so many people that helped out on our special day. It was an amazing day and we feel very blessed.

November 21st, was another amazing day as it was the birth of firstborn son Brandon James. He was born at 11:36 pm after a very long labor that ended up in a c-section because of complications. He was 8 lbs. 13 oz. and 21 inches long. He is everything that we have always hoped for, dreamed for and we could not ask for a better baby. Brandon is thriving and growing like a weed.

We have been blessed beyond words this year, and we are hoping that we are blessed even more in 2012. as 2011 closes we know that God gives us new hopes, new challenges and new dreams for the coming year. We know that 2012 will be a wonderful watching our son grow. We want to wish you all a Happy and joyous New Year!!

Love and God Bless each and everyone of you!!!

Patrick, April and Brandon Liebert!

Merry Christmas

We want to take the time to wish our family and friends a Merry Christmas. We look at this season as we celebrate the birth of Jesus and know that he is the reason for the season. However, it goes much deeper than that because we are very blessed this Christmas. This is the first year in many years that we will have the opportunity to spend with my sister, nieces and her boyfriend. This is honestly a long time coming and that is just one of the many blessings we have this Christmas. Other than the gift of Jesus, we have the gift of our son Brandon. This is his first Christmas and we could not feel more blessed to have him as our son. He may be too small to understand that it is Christmas but we are blessed beyond words to have Brandon here and with us.

We realize that every gift and blessing comes from above and there have been so many this year, including our marriage, the birth of our son, and just realizing the simple things in life.

James 1:17 says "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." Even when we struggle with change we know it is for the best and that it can somehow turn around into a gift from God.

We want to wish you all a Merry Christmas. Let us put our focus on Jesus as he is the reason for the season and he is the gift there for all of us to receive the gift of salvation!!

Happy 1 month birthday Brandon!

A month ago today we held in our arms for the first time our son Brandon James. He is the baby we have always hoped for and always dreamed for. Now that dream is our world. We can not imagine our lives without him. He has made us smile, he has made us cry, he has made us worry, but overall he has shown us what love is all about. There is not anything we would not do for him, and there is nothing we do not want to show him. He is our world, and we want to show him the world. Over the last month we have held a beautiful 8 lb. 13 ounce baby that has grown into our wonderful 10 pound 7 ounce baby. I love spending my days with Brandon and the best part of our days is when daddy comes home. Brandon has brought us so much joy, so much happiness that we could not in words tell you just how happy he has made us. I enjoy taking pictures of him. As he is now 1 month old we get to have his first Christmas and even though he will not remember much about this Christmas it is something we are really looking forward too. We love you Brandon and we cannot imagine our lives without you. You have given us so much joy and you complete our family!!!

Helpless

The last 4 days my baby boy has just had times that he has not been himself. Being a new parent it is hard to know whether or not to take him to the doctor. When I became a mommy and when I first felt my son kick inside the womb for the first time it was the most incredible feeling in the world. However I never wanted to be this parent that took my child to the dr every time he sneezed. Are we taking him to the doctor too much? Probably not, we are just looking out what is best for him. However, we found it was nothing but a common cold. So what can do for him, sure we can use the Vics vapor rub, but yet still he cries as a mommy I feel so helpless for my son. I know that it will get better but at times I just feel so helpless.

3 weeks old!!

I still find it so hard to believe that Brandon is 3 weeks old today. It has been an incredible 3 weeks having this blessing in our lives. There is not a day that I am not thankful and blessed all wrapped into one with Brandon in our lives. I could gaze into his beautiful eyes all day and not get bored with just that. Brandon was a gift that at times I never thought that I would receive and now that he is here he is a blessing to Patrick and I every single day.

3 weeks have went by and we have watched him grow and you can see a personality coming to life in his tiny little body. I love watching him sleep, and I even enjoy his awake times more and more as I know that he is ours, and he is the gift from God that I feel more and more blessed every day.

God has truly blessed us with Brandon and I cannot wait to see him grow even more and for us to eventually add more children to our ever growing family. We are truly blessed this Christmas season with Brandon as our son. We know that he is so loved by so many people and for that we feel even more blessed to have him in our lives!

Our baby boy

we have never felt so blessed as we do now. It has almost been 2 weeks since our son Brandon was born and I have never been more happy and felt more complete than I do right now. 2 1/2 months ago I married my best friend and now I feel so complete having our first born here with us. For 9 months I carried him inside of me and in my heart and now I could never imagine our lives without him in it. He has blessed us in so many ways that it would be so hard to even begin to think of all the ways that he has blessed us.

Brandon will always be our first born and we know that he will always look out for our other children. There is no doubt about it that as long as it is in God's plan for us we will have more children. However, we feel more blessed than ever that god has blessed us with a son. We are looking forward to Christmas this year more than years past because God blessed us with such a wonderful baby boy.

For 9 months he was inside of me and we were blessed with a wonderful doctor that took care of the two of us, and we will use the same doctor with our other children as well. Christmas is weeks away and we have the Reason for the Season in mind, and we are thankful to God for the gift he gave us in OUR son, but we are also more than thankful for the gift God gave us and that is the gift of his Son Jesus!

An Update

Even though it has been awhile since I have updated there has just been a lot to look forward to in our life. We are approaching the birth of our son with much hope that we have always had to be good parents. Brandon is all we as parents have hoped and dreamed for in this life. we as parents just want to feel the joys that every other parent feels and that is holding our son for the first time. We just wish that he would hurry up and get here. If anything we have learned to be patient even when patience is a virtue. The same patience we are learning now is the same patience we will have to learn with him throughout his life. All we really want is to be good parents to our son and raise him in the way that God designed us to be. We know that we will not be perfect because no one is perfect but we know that we will do the best that we can for him.

It is hard to believe that in a week we have been married for 2 months, but it has been an incredible two months. I have shared just a few pictures from our wedding. Now we look forward to the birth of our son and what God has in store for us.

Just an update

It has been awhile since I have been on here to blog, but thought that I would update my friends on here. Life has been really hectic but it has been a good hectic. Getting Married, and about to embark on a new journey when our son is born. It is hard to believe that in less than 2 months we will be holding him in our arms. It is surely an exciting time for us.

I really cannot wait to hold Brandon in my arms with the anticipation of his arrival. I cannot wait to be his mommy, and I cannot wait for start our life of a family of 3. I know it is getting close when the hospital called for pre registration information. So excited :-)

Give me Jesus

This may seem like an odd tittle to a blog but really when you think about it, it is all we need and desire in this world is Jesus. Fernando Ortego is a known Christian Artis who has a song that is called Give me Jesus. In the song he says "You can have all this world, just give me Jesus" Too many times we look at worldly possessions and not what is the most important to us. The most important to us should be the love of God and Jesus, not if you have the biggest house, the best job, and the most possessions. That is not what God wants of us, but we just need to forget those world possessions and lean on God. Can you live with all the things of this world and forget about Jesus? Would you really want to forget about Jesus?

I was thinking about this and then the song and it made me think this what it would be like if we forgot about Jesus? We would forget he was born and we would forget that he died. However did Jesus forget about is when he was dying a horrible death? He thought ONLY of us when he died on the cross. "For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." (2 Corinthians 5:21) For our sake God sent Jesus to the cross not for him but for us. Jesus died on the cross for us not himself. He gave up his life to save us from hell.

If you think about it, that is one sacrifice that he gave for us to live. We all sin, we all fall short of the glory of God, but Jesus saves us. He not just saved us he does continue to save us. Every time that we think we have messed up to the point that we will not be forgiven God always forgives us. He sent Jesus to the cross to save us from death in Hell.

So Give me Jesus, I would rather have Jesus in my life, and in my world then all the worldly possessions in my life. I do not need a big house, the best job, because you can have all the things of this world, just Give me Jesus.

"Join together in following my example, brothers and sisters, and just as you have us as a model, keep your eyes on those who live as we do. For, as I have often told you before and now tell you again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ. Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is set on earthly things. But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body. Philippians 3:18-21

When I die my citizenship will be in Heaven where will yours be?

Happy Valentines Day!

Hello to all my friends and family! I have to say that Valentines Day was always that one holiday that I dreaded. The only reason that I dreaded was because either the person I loved was too far away or I just simply did not have anyone. Well today that is different as I do have someone. I love Patrick more then anything in this world. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile at some of the most weirdest things in this world, but he fits me perfectly.

> is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.”

In many ways this quote fits the life that I have with Patrick, He does have the lock that fits the key, that is the key to my heart. There is no one one earth that I love more then he. He saved my life in so many ways, he is sometimes the only one that can make me smile and laugh. When I am having a bad day or a rough time with something he is always the one that can cheer me up. I trust him with everything and I know that he trusts me.

This Valentines day, has shown to be much better for me and I am thankful I can say that I have that person that I love more than anything. I look forward to what the future holds for us. Being Married, staring a family and the rest is only known to be seen.Patrick is my everything, he is the best thing that ever happened to me and I know that we will have ups and downs but that is just part of life, but as long as we lean on each other we can make it through anything. I LOVE YOU Patrick! Happy Valentines day!

 For 4 years I have held on to something that is now time to let go of the most painful thing to date that I have been through, and that was someone that I loved more then anything in my life, and I let him go because of the truth that I found out about him. I let go of him a long time ago but to tell you the truth the pain that he has caused me never has went away, it has always been there. Patrick has filled the shattered heart that Ron left and made it whole again, but to me I will always ask why Ron but me through what he did. So let me explain Ron. 

Ron Juckno- I thought he was the man of my dreams, the first say I met him was in Myspace chat at that time they still had chat. I was bored and needed some motivation so I went into chat. I was there no more then 5 minutes and I left but I will never forget the words that he said to me and that was that I was beautiful. After getting the motivation I needed I left and went back to working on my school work. I thought nothing more of the brief conversation I had with Ron. I logged in to Myspace the next day and he sent me a mesage told me I could add him if I wanted. I was on yahoo more so I gave him my sign in name on yahoo. He logged in and I started talking to him. He had made me feel like no ever guy had, loved. I had talked to him all day, and then he even called me on the phone while he was at work. He told me that he was separated from his wife and would be getting a divorce. I believed him this would be key details that I should never have believed, but because I always believe everyone I thought he was telling me the truth. So the journey begins.....

For the next years Ron came and went from my life, some was my fault some was his, he would talk to me for days and days on end and then just like that I would not hear from him for days, then he would come back and he had a way just to make everything feel better so I would fall right back into his trap he had. I seen red flags, there were countless times I would ask him if he was still married and he would tell me no...of course I believed him. The more I talked to Ron the more I feel in love with him, the more I would do anything to be with him. I met him 1 time in the four years that I was with him. It was ok but it was like he was hiding something. There was a 6 month period that I had enough of his lies but I still talked to him. Eventually I would fall back into his trap. I loved the man, I would do anything for him and I mean anything, I would have given him the shirt off of my back and so much more. I would have been a loving wife, and mother to his children and our future children. He went so far as allowing me to even go out and buy a wedding dress, because I really believed him. He even sent me a ring, all of it was a lie. How could it have been a lie? I still ask myself this question today. 

In December of 2009 I moved from the only state I ever lived in to New York. Living there taught me so many things, and it would have been the plan for me to move from New York to California where Ron lived. I always had faith that would happen, but sadly that never happened. I will always remember the last time I talked to him. I had just started my job in New York and things were going well and just like that Ron once again faded into the sunset, for some reason this time felt different then the last ones, because it was something in the heart that told me it was going to be different. It was 7 days later someone who said it was Ron's "mother" said Ron was in a coma for no apparent reason other then stress Ron was in a coma. My own personal opinion on this matter today is it was Ron the whole time because of the way he stated things in his email, words identical to the way he would say things. Me being the heartfelt person I am believed him. I went through many sleepless nights, I would cry myself to sleep at night worried sick, my health took a turn for the worst while I was out there something both physical and mentally and even emotionally. Would I ever be the same person I once was? I felt at times I went through motions. 

My boss and great friend Rachael had some advice for me to take a trip and take sometime to just think about me and find myself again. At the time I really did not think in-depth about it. Today I realize that her advice saved my life over and over again. I did an internship for school in Myrtle Beach South Carolina. It was a perfect situation for me be educated and find time for me myself to find myself again. I had an ocean front room and it could not have been a more perfect situation. I enjoyed everything I went and did, there are some things that really made me think. I remember texting Rachael and her asking me had I found that time. As I walked the Ocean I was in complete awe of God's wonderful sights. 

As you can see in the above pictures the scenery was awesome. I took the time to take Rachael's advice and "find myself" When I left Myrtle Beach and went back home to New York I did not know how much this trip would impact me until about a month later. During the time I was there Ron was still in his so called coma. I would get updates here and there, but nothing big would ever change. There was always doubt in my mind that he ever had a coma. A day before He "came back" Things changed and I met the most amazing man and that man is Patrick. It was then that I found myself and I realized for the first time in a long time that Ron had been lying to me, it was not Patrick that showed me that light, but it was when I took the nerve to finally message his "ex-wife" on Facebook. In that message I begged her to tell me what was the real truth and she emailed me back that they had always been together that she had known about me and she could just never get him to stop doing what he was doing. The same day I found this out is when I started talking to Patrick. even though happy I felt like my world had come crashing down on me because it was not until the next day that I took the nerve to email Ron's email and demand the truth, the truth I got from him was that Someone from Sweden hacked his email so he could not email me. It was then that I knew I could let go of him and move on. Things worked out good because of Patrick. However the problem was that we were separated by miles. That would soon change so we made the best we could until I could move back to Wisconsin. In the end when I found out the truth, him married faking a coma, I had found my real self and I realized I am strong because of the lessons that Ron taught me and that is to never truth a person like him ever again and when there are red flags that there is a reason for them. 

It has been almost a year now since the whole ordeal with Ron's fake coma started, and I can say that I am happy. I am happy to have found true love, I am happy to be the person I am today, and in the end Ron made me a much smarter and stronger person then I ever was. They say in life that everything happens for a reason, I will always wonder why Ron Juckno did what he did to me and not just me but my family and friends and all the lies he constantly told them but I realize that I learned many valuable lessons in the four years that he lied to me. 

I am truly in Love with Patrick in a little over a year he will be my husband. I am sharing this story about Ron to help those that may be in a similar situation. I was taught many lessons but in the end they have made me a much better person. The reason I named this "What Hurts the Most" is I work every day to put the fractures that Ron caused back together, the low self esteem he caused me, the no trust I had in no one, and so much more. I am sharing this because it helps me put rest in knowing I could save someone else from the same thing. 

Just somethings I need to say

As usual this weekend was amazing, but most of my weekends are, they just go by way to fast. However, I will say that a decision was made and even though some people may think it was a hard one it was just one that needed to be done and that was delaying our wedding. The only reason we did is because financially we would not be ready to get married in September so we just have decided to wait to get married until Spring of 2012. Part of dreams coming true means that sometimes things are better off waiting for. I have waited to get married a long time but this time I just know it is right, and that it is for all the right reasons. 
In the past I have not had good relationships and to the point that I was lied to about everything, but that is behind me, now I look at my future and I wonder where does the future hold, and it belongs in the direction I am going, I am 6 months from graduating, I have faith I will land the job I have been waiting for in psychology or counseling, I just can feel nothing but good things coming my way. 
There is nothing more then I want than to have a baby and I know it will happen and it may happen sooner than I think it will happen, I just know that I love my life, I love those that are in it. Life is all about a lesson and lessons and I know I have learned some along the way, but I know that some experiences that I have had have made me a better and stronger person. I love having a man that supports me in everything that I do, I know that we may have fights and we may have arguments but in the end they make us just that much stronger. Each day that I get to spend with him is one more day closer to our dreams coming true. There is nothing more that I want then to simply be happy. Not letting life get us down but to just take life and it is and enjoy each and every moment that we have, laugh, cry, but more than anything just seize the moment and seize the day and make the best of today. 
I am happy because I am loved, and that I mean the world to that one person that matters, and that is the love of my life, the joy of my life, the one that always knows how to cheer me up when no one else can and that is my love of my life Patrick.